Monthly Archives: March 2015

Out of the dark

Everybody has a dark side,a place they sometimes go to escape the world around them. A place sometimes that’s hard to crawl out of. Depression affects about 1 in 10 Americans and is rapidly becoming a major concern. Sadly when a person is depressed or has any other mood disorder they are labeled as having a “mental illness” and that frightens people and sometimes makes them not as compassionate. It also makes a person not seek help.
I wish people knew that sometimes depression is triggered by something and sometimes it’s not, that sometimes one small thing is needed to pull a person out of darkness, and sometimes everything is unable to, that sometimes the only thing you can do is to wait for symptoms to subside and sometimes you can’t just “shut it off” no matter what you try. Yes there’s medicines and therapy and natural remedies but the whole stigma that goes with it can make a person even more depressed. If someone you know struggles with this, be compassionate. Let them know you are there for them. You don’t have to pretend to know what they are going through but not judging or avoiding the issue is the first step. We all go through sadness but depression is more than that,I know first hand. It’s not easy when u feel most alone in a group of people. It’s not easy to smile through the pain. Nothing comes easy when your depressed. Eventually the sun will break through the dark and until then,remember you are not alone. Remember you are stronger than you think. Mostly, remember all that life has in store for you even when you feel you can’t go on.



Why do we fear a broken heart when it will still continue to beat? I fear the conscience. That alone drives you to do what u do. Right or wrong. Conscience is where you store your memories..good or bad. This is your state of mind. Without this your heart wouldn’t know what to feel. This determines what hurts our heart but in actuality,it’s not really hurt at all. It’s your spirit,your will, your mindset that takes the blow. I often wish I could just erase some thing’s from my sub conscious. Certain memories that cause nothing but sorrow. Heartbreak? I don’t know about that but I do know a troubled mind creates a heavy heart and that will most definitely break you. The ability to feel is a powerful thing. I just wish there was a switch where I could shut that off and feel nothing, even if for just a little while.